SOME people say i never blog . hahaha . im blogging at work ! dont have much time . scared someone comes up =x just some quotes ((:
i have found the paradox that if i love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love. by Mother Theresa
Money is a strange thing. It ranks with love as our greatest source of joy, and with death as our greatest source of anxiety. Joe Moore
Age does not protect you from love. But love, to some extent, protects you from age. Jeanne Moreau
Absence does not make the heart grow fonder, but it sure heats up the blood. Elizabeth Ashley
A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love. Stendhal
All the passions make us commit faults; love makes us commit the most ridiculous ones. François Duc de La Rochefoucauld
yeaah . these are from lucas (: its prom night today . why do i feel so indifferent ?
Saturday, November 17, 2007,4:23 pm
16nov.
OHKAY. for the sake of azureen i told myself i'd blog (: i swear i want to blog everyday . but its like . i either get distracted doing something else or i dont get to use com =x
well . woke up again to one of azureeen's calls . she's like my alaram clock sometimes =x wahaha . thanks to her . im not late :D
in the end . the gundu was late . when i reach school . she still can use her HOUSE PHONE call me . omg . only azureeen . hahaha .
well . it was nice to finally see imah again . but . she went lunch with serweee . and marcus was busy .
so . STRAIGHT AWAY SHOPPPP :DD erica joined us also MUAHAHA ! with her super ultra sexy dyed hair luh ! so super jealouuuuus . reaaaaally very nice . but eh . i dont know what colour . red ? =x
hm . we first went vivo . cos shuni saw cheap dresses in forever21 but . gosh . SO EXPENSIVE luh . in fact . all the dresses were ! super nice though ): but the price went up to as UP as 200 bucks ? lols . budget budget .
ohkay . mi just read something that just so fcuking spoiled my night. omg omg omg . i SHOULD fcuk out shouldnt i ? yeah i will . so what if i do . nobody would care would they ? ohkay . i will fcuk off . hurt is just another emotion isnt it ? i dont even know what the heck im saying .
ohkay . enough rubbish . CONTINUE ! hm . after sending off erica . we met azureen and went to sea chicken lane (: a long bus ride there . we sat a double decker ! thanks to azureen and her bus pass . hahaha . we all had a nice chat on the bus . its times when we all just sit and shake leg that makes everything seem perfect (: but sadly . its not =x
anyway . the weather got SUPER hot . and i was having an eff-ing fluu luh . it was seriously irritating . i dont know why suddenly sick =x but . i tried not to let it affect the promise i had with them =x hm . weather hot hot hot . then we had to walk walk walk . hahaha . shops were interesting . it looked like an old abandoned lane . but once you opened the doors into the shop . BRANDEDD . AIRCON . omg . seriously unexpected . SO UNEXPECTED . we couldnt afford anything . hahaha . the shop we went there for was unfortunately not open ):
well . azureen and i went to ask whether she was legal to smoke the sheshaa . UNDERAGE ): sadd-ed . hahaha . two years time azureeen :D yati was quiet throughout . can sense she was financially stressed . im sorry yati ): *COUGH . sheeela ): i try my best to help you :DD
hm . then we walk walk walk back to bugis streeet . usual shopping . and as USUAL . lini sheela and zureen and left with me and shuni again OH ! did i mention zureen and shuni were singing the living with lydia song . and we ate zureen's intro . ZAM ZAM :DD
hahaha . crazy assholes =x hm . so . left with the sadd couple at bugis ): we went to walk somemore . then we went to novenaaa . we kept arguing and quarrelling in public . but i have my LONTONGG to protect me ! :DD
at novena . final hope to find dress . hah . but i think all along my mind was already set on that dress shuni was like super tired =x her leg like want break . but she still keeeep walking ! thanks for the patience =x hahaha . we went to buy the QQbaaaaaall . wanted to ask for work . but paiseh =x the small little stall was so super crowded =x
yeah . the long mrt ride home . i didnt want to drown in my thoughts . i know i'll break down . i dont want to give myself the opportunity =x yeah . so i blasted my music louuudd and just blank out (:
hahaha . wanted to call cherie . neeeded her badly =x but . she had some family probs . gosh . why is the peace being tampered with again ? relationships going off balance for everyone. quarrels . arguments . i cant stand it . really cant stand it .
yeah . called up a few people . they all not freeeee . by the time i went home . hoped hard that wouldnt end up quarreling with family . thank God didnt (:
hm . starting work tomorrow . kinda sudden. but only half day :D sorry sheeela =x couldnt give youu the job . omg . i feeel so guilty =x
i feeel hurt . i still do ): though i leave it upspoken . it hurts ohkay . it does ):
WOAH . its been two months since i blogged . and i guess i have alot to make up for eh ? haha .
well . long story short . i loved and lost . i laughed then cried .
andd .. OLEVELS ARE OVER . cliche as it may be . all throughout o's . my motivations was .. to make sure that i wont have regrets . and to find job (: pathetic eh ? but i seriously had nothing else . i dont know where i am . i dont know where i want to go .
so evidently . i guess this motivation i was supposed to draw strength from wasnt good enough ? or maybe i wasnt good enough . i dont think i put in my all . and i know the results will show . then again . whats done is done (:
but . i truly truly thank God . i thank God for all the guidance . for allowing me to draw strength not from myself but through him . all he morning prayers . the constant prayers of my family and friends . i think thats the only reason i made it through . thanks God (:
well . for those who know me well . they will know that i've always had this so-called vision . you know .. there are moments in your life where you can just SEE . just .. have a feeeling of something . to be so sure . well . i had that feeeling . that i wouldnt live to take o'levels . i dont know . it was just so clouded . i seriously thought i was going to die before o'lvls . well .. *cough . im still here :D
ohkay ohkay . beeen going out these few days . this weeek seeemed so long . cant imagine o's only ended like .. five days ago ? lol it seems so distant now .
on tuesday . went to causeway with shuni and zureeen . come THAT ONE . then like cramp all day luh =x i still remember what an ass i was complaining =x job-searching was .. futile (:
ahaha . on wed. went to town with the gurls . i wasnt really keeen on going . on reasons i wont mention (: but . thanks to shuni . who convinced me to go . i ended up having a good time . thanks to azureeen and sheeela . who showed me they were there through and through . that i can always rely on them . and that we dont neeed words . they will understand . ohkay luh . maybe need some words after . cos they gong gong HAHA. that im not alone . THANKS (: ILOVEYOUGUYS :D
on thursday . was supposed to go cut hair with imah . but she andd shuni go johor . GOOOD LUH . hahaha . went to shalini's house for deeepavali . dont have costume seh = played alot of bombs and sparklers . i smuggle some home . MUAHAHA . ate curry and watch casper . HAH .
yesterday . supposed to go out find job . but i ended going out cut hai and facial with sis . my face hurts seh ! lol . but .. did help to cheeer me up . and help me relax finally (: WOOHOO. and i cooook my first lontong !! WOOHOO . dad say it was niceee . WOOHOO . but think he added something ba . but .. improving (:
ohkay ohkay . i think i shant blog about the past . clouded with misery and tears many many . im glad i finally got it all out to julia today . i decided . i couldnt give up on this friendship . but . whether you mean what you say is another thing . if not . i'll just have to give you a punch in the face .
omg omg omg . so much has happened since tues . thinking back . i seriously dont now why time for studying seemed to scarce and precious . like there was so little and it passed ever-s0 slowly . but now . it seems to be just waiting for us to fill it up .
should i go vbs ? ohkay . i know im super random .
WENT SENTOSA WITH CHERIE TODAY . hahhaa . i just had to shout that out . wasnt that keeen on going at first . firstly .. my mood . second . my thing . third . the weather . but the day turned up super gooood(: iloveherman . i really cant imagine how i can live through life without cheriexushihui . the crapper queen is my pillar of strength . thanks alot cherie :D SEEEEE . dont say i not grateful uh . hahahaah (:
then went to shalini's house to cycle . but we spent much of the time sitting in the middle of the carpark and talking . lame =x ohkay fine . potato chips tooo . CHERIE'S one ! MUAHAHA =x anyway . slacked until about 9 then i went off le.
i thank God for all the blessings . i wish i could be lost in them forever . i know im very fortunate . thanks alot .. really (: and of course i thank the blessings for being the blessings that they are . hahaaha .
ohkay . i super lazy to blog the details . but this weeek will forever be etched in the pit of my thoughts :D wahahaa .
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